Sunset Daze

hi y’all! happy st. Patrick’s day! im seeing green today.. green hats, green shirts, green beers, and so much more green.

well, my one week vakay is almost up. boohoo. thanks to the great people and wonderful city of Boston and NYC. it has been great fun! however, i am super duper absolutely and utterly tired from my shopping spree yesterday. i have to pack my stuffs and get up early tomorrow to do important things and go back to my sad reality.

stay tuned for the Britney, Celts pics, and a whole lotta other stuffs from my trip.

xoxo

haha, this is another one of those pointless post. but im bored.. heck, im always bored.

did i mention i got my haircut recently? i decided that i was sick of looking like someone who couldn’t afford a haircut (plus, i got splitends all over), so i went to the local mall and walked into a place that seemed strange but affordable. little did i know that they charge extra for “long hair”, yeah $10 extra. what a ripoff, the cut is fine they chopped off a good 4-5 inches or so, but the surcharge was dumbass. so yeah, my hair’s short now. a little too short for my taste. hope it grows back fast.

just 3 more days, and ill be able to see mom and dad finally. its been too damn long. one more week, and its hello new york city! yup im heading to the big apple. thats about the only saving grace right now from being stuck in small town boringville. and even though i might be underpaid and underappreciated in my workplace, i managed to save a bit… soo, its high time i splurge on my favorite things in NYC. hehe. me and ashley, we’ll be catching britney’s concert. woo! also, i got my tix for Celtics home game, and Wicked musical. i am so stoked! ill post pictures soon.

bye.

i had “The House Bunny” dvd for a couple of weeks now, but never had the time to watch it until today. boy oh boy, i was so surprised Tyson Ritter of the All American Rejects (AAR) was in that movie. i mean, holy shiiit! how the hell did i not know that?!! he’s lookin’ effin’ hot playing as colby, one of the frat guys. i especially like the scene at the end, when he tells natalie, “..here i am, just a goofey dude..” i thought that was pretty sweet, plus the kiss was great.

well, nothin to do at the moment, so im just blabbing. anyways, just go rent the movie, and see for urselves. id say the story and plot are just about average, but anna faris and the zeta girls will have u laughin good time.

going back to Tyson and AAR, their latest single “Gives You Hell” is pretty much stuck in my head these days. the ultimate F.U. song for sure! reminds me of all the haters and fakers back in the days. for all i care, those bitches can just die and go to hell.

GIVES YOU HELL

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where’s your picket fence, love
And where’s that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far?

You’ve never seem so tense, love
I’ve never seen you fall so hard,
Do you even know where you are?

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I’m lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that’s worth a damn and treats you well
Then he’s a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

anytime someone asked me what i want for christmas, i just tell them, “i want to skip christmas for one year, so that i can appreciate it next year and possibly look forward to it.”

ive been pretty depressed lately, not sure if it’s the winter blues (yes, i hate the f**king snow and the ice storms here!) or the fact that in order to maintain any sort of non-negative behavior at work it requires every damned cell in this peapod body of mine to put up a front and pretend all is good with the world. for the most part i have succeeded, but the little voice in the back of my mind is winning again, it whispers, “no amount of smiling, positive thoughts or hope will advance you further within this company, face it, you are stuck and no one even cares to indicate there is hope on the horizon, you have some choices to make, and time to make it sooner rather than later.“ of course the same voice swears at me and tells me to hang in there no matter what is thrown at me. so it shall be whispered, so it shall be done. but no, im not really hearing voices, i hear my own voice of reason, of miserableness, of happy happy, joy joy and of passion.

sigh, i miss my family terribly. this is the first christmas (and birthday..) that im away from home, family and friends. i miss our traditional christmas eve dinner and our traditional unwrapping of presents from the ninongs and ninangs, while eating leftovers on christmas morning. but instead of those, i found myself sleeping, getting up, showering and getting ready for hospital duty. yes, christmas this year for me was just another day at the lab, business continues as usual. but a busy christmas eve was not what i had expected. i was dead tired running labs back and forth. apparently, there’s a whole lot of drunken idiots out about that night wreaking havoc.

yeah yeah, i know, i bitch and whine constantly, and i actually do feel selfish saying how depressing it is, but no matter how depressing it is for me, i cant fathom how terrible it is to have my family and relatives worried over me. im sorry u guys… ill try to be more optimistic, i promise.

well, despite all of that, i still love giving gifts and christmas, for that matter, even though most of the time the people that get my gifts don’t remember that i got them things and heck even i usually don’t remember what i bought them last year. i just like buying things to make people happy.. hehehe.. hey, christmas is all about giving, after all. i know this is so cliche, but im an idealist, i dont give gifts expecting to get them in return (though ideally it is nice every once in a while..)

again, excuse the rantings of a disgruntled female. indeed, it’s a strangest of christmases. i do hope everyone who reads this has had a better one than mine. when mine does happen, ill let u know!

signing out for now.

p.s. thanks for all the bday greetings. appreciate it!

hi guys! doing better today, considering what an insane week i had at work, and well..uh.. not to mention a freaky accident i had while driving home on the highway. stupid me, stupid black ice, stupid stop-sign post! actually slept most of the night, it was a sleep made by pure exhaustion, and lack of well.. sleep, so today while i feel tons better, i’m still groggy, because of well, lack of.. sleep.

well, thanksgiving came and gone. it’s just any other day for me. went to Subway, and got myself a turkey sandwich. i ate the turkey, im generally content, and im thankful that im breathing. so in other words, i stuffed myself silly and went to bed.

okay, i finally was able to upload all the photos and video clips i had from last Tuesday (nov. 18), when i was over at L.A. man, i had a blast there! everything about L.A. is fantastic. i love the energy of the city, the weather, the people, the food, the malls… heck, even ryan seacrest’s early morning radio gig was exciting. his twilight readings, and ryan’s roses are cool stuffs.

ok, so this is my twilight experience in LA.. i arrived monday afternoon at LAX. the red carpet premiere event was going to be at westwood theatre in hollywood that same night. it definitely would have been nice to go, and see all the casts and stars, but i knew that they’re only handing out a limited number of wristbands for the fan-viewing area, and im pretty sure i dont have a chance in hell of getting one, since most the fans already camped out the night before. i thought i’d save myself from being trampled to death from the crowd. it can get wild and crazy, especially when Rob’s coming.

day two, Tuesday – the one i was most looking forward to. my cuz, david got me the wristbdand for the paramore/twilight concert (thanks again!). i was just totally psyched for paramore. im a huge fan of theirs, long before they were even involved with twilight. i had their album Riot on repeat in my iPod. “Misery Business” is like the anthem of the year for me. it never grows old.. hehe =) so we got there early, almost around 12 noon. as i’ve said before, i want to be at a concert within the first few rows, or its just not a concert at all. went in.. found a good spot somewhere in center barricade, met some cool people there while waiting. wasnt long when i saw Hayley and Josh came up on stage… turned out they were doing soundcheck! wow! Hayley was really nice and friendly interacting with fans. there wasnt that many people yet, so minus the pushing and shoving, i got some really good shots of Hayley and Josh. Josh looked buffed, and so totally hot in person. they just played a little part from Decode, but i was already very happy and excited to actually see them.

after that, it was another long wait, under the burning sun! good thing they were handing out pizzas and water. dont want anyone to faint, i guess..

time went by fast, and the next thing u know, its 4 o’clock. Kristen stewart and Nikki reed, from Twilight introduced Paramore, and show’s on the way. As always, hayley’s amazing live. they know how to put on a great show. zach was a beast on the drums. i love em all. i had a rockin’ headbangin’ good time. i wish they could have performed more songs, like “crushcrushcrush” or my favorite, “for a pessimist, im pretty optimistic”. but they only did 4 sets, and i thought the finale “Decode” was sick! Hayley’s range and charisma on stage was mindblowing!

After Paramore’s Lost Show, came the Twilight QandA. the crowd went nuts when ashley, kellan, nikki, jackson and taylor came up on stage. geez, those stupid teenage girls screamed like shit. i swear to god my ears were bleeding.. i never wanted to grab those ear plugs from a security guy so badly. it actually was annoying really.. i mean its supposed to be a Q&A, not a scream fest. but still, my focus was on Jackson Rathbone! it’s one of those OMFG moment for me. he’s so dreamy and gorgeous…

check out this short video clip i got during the Q&A. sorry, sound’s flooded and crappy. i could care less about taylor and his werewolf lineage.. i think vampires are waaay hotter! haha!

the autograph signing came next. the line was insane. it stretched a couple of blocks away from the mall. because i was at the front rows, i was able to line up first, so i was ahead of the pack. so while standing in line, i had it all premeditated in my head, that when it gets to my turn to meet Jackson, i was going to introduce myself, and tell him how much i adore him as Jasper in Twilight. but it didnt exactly happened that way… call it starstrucked or whatever, but my mind just went blank when i was in front of him. he smiled the most beautiful smile ever, and i just blurted out, “Jackson, you’re beautiful!” i must have gotten his and ashley’s attention, coz they both looked up at me. Ashley agreed with me, and said “yes, he is”. and Jackson went all shy and blushing, saying “no, but thank you.” finally, i asked him, “can i shake your hand?”, then he pulled out his hand, and gave me a nice quick handshake. for a moment there, i was in cloud nine! weee =)

i had dinner at Geisha that night with dave, alice and family, and cant help gushing over Jackson, Twilight and Paramore. and there u go, my Twilight tuesday is complete! =)

Friday, Nov 21st — okay this is getting to be a very long post, so ill make this short. i went to see Twilight on opening day, and still, there were a bunch of crazy teenage girls screaming every single time edward appeared on screen! i mean yes, edward is hot and all, and im sure i wasnt the only one melting in my seat staring at his perfect face for 2 hours.. but seriously, i wished they’d stop with the screaming. its so annoying.

so what do i think of the movie? it was just OK! i wasnt satisfied, though. it certainly paled in comparison to the book. the story was pretty accurate, along with the scenes they put in the movie, but i thought the directing, and the sequence of events were horrible. there were too much close-ups, and spinning-around-the-character angle in the movie. the special effects werent that great either, but i guess they did the best they could given the low budget of the film.

i know the main story revolves around bella and edward and their forbidden love… but they totally dismissed the Cullens. there was absolutely no character development on them, whatsoever. poor alice, jasper, and emmet had only, like 5 lines in the movie. f*ckin ridiculous! alice is my favorite vampire, and she played a big role in the book. there was even no mention of jasper’s ability to manipulate emotions, and carlisle’s history was never told. i thought those were important elements that should have been included in the movie. perhaps, they should hire a better screenplay writer next time.

with that said, the movie had its saving graces. the baseball scene was fun to watch. Rob’s perfect for edward. and Kristen actually surprised me. she played Bella really well… ok maybe the stuttering thing during the hospital scene was a bit over exaggerated, but all in all, she did a good job.

New Moon will follow next in the movie franchise. hopefully, it’ll be made better, and alice and jasper should get more screen time!

mood: crazy. obessessed.

song playing in my pc: That’s What You Get - Paramore

well then, i think i have everything sorted out. i have to work for seven straight days this week, so i could get the next week off. yes, i’m worn out. but next tuesday, i definitely have to be in LA!!! the road to twilight and paramore hysteria begins.  what can i say, im a headbanging teenager at heart. really i am.

so, two weeks ago, i was completely bummed out when i learned that the paramore gig sold out. apparently, they were selling like hotcakes. i heard one store got all wristbands sold out in two hours (wtf?!) i knew it was a moot point, but in desperation, i still tried calling the store. a guy named “john” answered, and hinted me to check back a week after because they “might” have another batch of wristsbands for sale. woohoo! my hopes went up again. and  truly enough, a week later, they announced that four cast members from twilight will be there signing autographs, alongside paramore! additional wristbands up for grabs…

uhh.. paramore PLUS twilight?! how can i refuse?! i have to be there dammit! fate is unkind, as i am stuck in this boring hell-hole of a town. nothing exciting ever happens around here. but im nuts, so i decided to call my cousin, alice in LA. ok what happened after that, i will not go into details. i felt so sorry, embarrassed and guilty, to be buggin alice to go get me those darn wristbands at hollywood and highland center. and just for the record, T-mobile, u suck! my txt messages hardly ever gets through. whats up with that?!

one of the other reasons for my decision to go, is that paramore wont be having any live tours anymore, until maybe around the middle of next year, which for me seems like a long time from now, and since i dont have a clue where ill be located then, this just makes sense.

also, ill be meeting up with Tania in LA. Tania is probably the biggest paramore fan in san luis, ca. LOL. have a safe drive down to LA, tania. but please, be as early as u can. sorry, im kinda fussy. i want to be at a concert within the first few rows, or its just not a concert for me. actually… im spoiled is more probable. hehehe =)

bottom line, i want to go, i really want to go! so now, i have the wrsitbands for the paramore+twilight event, thanks to david and alice! i am so very grateful. of course, getting there is another matter. i hate the long drives going to the airport, and plane ride makes me wanna puke all the time. but thats not gonna stop me, or dampen my spirit. i am super excited to be meeting hayley from paramore, and jackson rathbone aka jasper hale!

whee! see you guys there! \m/

A tribute to Jasper Hale and Alice Cullen (cutest vampire couple ever!)

soul mates, true halves, soprano and bass

Quotes from Eclipse (third book of the Twilight saga)

“She was there - expecting me, naturally.” He chuckled once. “She hopped down from the high stool at the counter as soon as I walked in and came directly toward me.
It shocked me. I was not sure if she meant to attack. That’s the only interpretation of her behavior my past had to offer. But she was smiling. And the emotions that were emanating from her were like nothing I’d ever felt before.
‘You’ve kept me waiting a long time,’ she said.
(Jasper - p. 301)

“And you ducked your head, like a good Southern gentleman, and said ‘I’m sorry, ma’am.’” Alice laughed at the memory.
(Alice - p.301)

Jasper smiled down at her. “You held out your hand, and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing. For the first time in almost a century, I felt hope.”
(Jasper - p. 301)

Alice grinned. “I was just relieved. I thought you were never going to show up.”
(Alice - p. 302)

jasper and alice

Alice foresaw Jasper finding her in a vision before he even knew he was looking for her. They met face-to-face in a diner located in Philadelphia, where she told him that she had been waiting a long time for his arrival. A little bewildered but intrigued with her knowing him, Jasper “ducked his head like a good southern gentleman” and answered, “I’m sorry, ma’am.” She offered him her hand, a non-verbal question of whether or not he would like to go with her. He did indeed take her hand, as the sight of it brought him hope “for the first time in almost a century”. During their companionship and travels, they fell in love. By 1950, they found Carlisle with more assistance from her visions and have been part of his coven ever since.

Alice and Jasper have been together since the 1950s, but are not as flamboyant with their relationship as their “siblings”, Rosalie and Emmett, although they are stated to be soul mates and have been legally married. Jasper and Alice understand each other and are very protective. Jasper will do anything to keep Alice safe. Alice will also not let him get hurt, and keeps him from going with her to Italy during New Moon for his own safety.

~from ifelthope.net

i know, i know. i just havent blogged for a long while, even though i promised i would. well, i am now. hopefully the spark will find me again, and i will post more often. my life consists of work, work, forget things, sleep, work, and then in between hop into the internet (youtube and hulu mostly) to see what’s goin on.

yes, its pathetic, i know. essentially, i have all the basics (and more) that i need to survive. i have a roof over my head, a fancy schmancy computer, generally in good health, i’m not the ugliest person on the planet, i’m not deformed, i’m not missing a limb or dying of some terrible disease. i certainly am not without food and comforts that many humans in the world are without. i am warm in the winter, cool in the summer, if I want something within reason i can reach into my mediocre savings and purchase it. so when you look at it from that perspective, if I am not happy, i should be at least content.

why am i not content?
I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream

this is the lyric from a Nine Inch Nail song, “Everyday is exactly the same.” i was watching the newly released “Wanted” movie on dvd last night, and that song had came up once or twice around the beginning of the film. and oddly enough, that song pretty much sums things up. without creativity and purpose, i fail to exist or even want to exist. put me into a set pattern with the same tedious tasks each and every day and i fail at life. this is a pattern, my pattern. one that is becoming quite obvious, if I look back at my past. i am unhappy when i do not see myself progressing in my so called life. how bizarre is that? millions of people are content every day to go to the same job, do the same thing and repeat. but I am not. this is extremely unfair if you were to ask my opinion. ignorance looks to be blissful, why can’t i just be blissful? why is mediocre not good enough, when it’s good enough for so many people out there?

so as i sit here pondering quitting from a position that won’t progress in the forseeable future (months, probably 6 months or more), i am undecided. if I stay, i will be miserable, even more so than i am currently. if I leave, i will have the freedom but it’s possible i will regret my choice. which regret can i live with most? staying or leaving? flip a coin. but still, i tell myself everyday that staying a li’l bit longer, and getting that work experience will be good in the long run.

anyways, i am sleep deprived, with 3-4 hours everyday. i am so used to working graveyard shift, that i dont sleep during the night anymore, even though i ought to when i get to have those 3 days off in a week. plus, there’s the added hassle of everyday crappy stuffs. for example:

laundry. hate doing the laundry, more so on the ironing part.

chores. who likes chores anyway? ’nuff said.

oh, and i keep forgetting the carwash. winter’s coming, and i gotta get that carwash done, and buy some winter gears and scrapers for my car.

when u think of it… its pretty sad, when all i do is hope that there is hope for me. because there isnt really any hope if i continue to stay in this lame town. but i have to hope that there is hope, to imagine it might be hopeful.

 so yeah, its fun being me.

OMFG!!! i’ve got the OCD!!! Obssesive Cullen Disorder, that is. Entertainment Tonight previewed the new and final trailer for Twilight today, and i swear to god my heart came to a screeching halt when i saw edward’s heavenly face. i’m sure i, along with legions of other twi-hard fanatics, are soo looking forward to this movie. this is a highly anticipated film, and of course, its going to be huge.

i’ve finished reading Twilight about a month ago, and i am just starting with the second book, New Moon. i just hope the movie will be as good as the book. i mean i know its kinda hard to squeeze a 500-page novel into a 100-page screenplay (heck, i dont even know if its a hundred pages, its just my guess for an hour and a half of movie time..), but i really hope they’ll do the book justice. i know there’s some scripts written for the movie thats not in the book, so that should be interesting to see. i am most looking forward to the fight scene at the ballet studio. i want to know who gets to kill james, and how they do it, since the book didnt get into that because it was told entirely on bella’s perspective. but based from those promotional footages ive seen on mtv news, i think it was alice who gets to rip off james’ head and tear him to shreds…

i love the actors they casted for the Cullen family. robert pattinson, as edward cullen is a very good pick, in my opinion. i already fell in love with him as cedric diggory in harry potter, and now he’s playing a sexy vampire… this is just too good to be true… why do vampires always have to be so… damn perfect?! jasper is pretty cute too. i wouldnt mind spending an eternity with jasper either. as with bella, im not too sure about casting kristen stewart. dont get me wrong, she’s a terrific actress (i liked her in panic room), but everything about her is contradictory to what i imagined bella would be. bella’s more like a klutz, and is a freak accident waiting to happen, but with kristen, she seems fiercer and more in control. i dont know really, just giving my two cents. somebody else might have another opinion about the cast and crew.

so, my calendar’s marked for november 21st. i am stoked, cant wait for it to come out. but for now, u can check the new trailer of twilight in HD at myspace, coz it sure as hell looks awesome!